Circle

Thu, Jul 3, 2025

I want to lie down under a tree.
Hopefully there will be some cool breeze.
I don’t know if I want someone around,
but if there must be,
it must be someone who can stay quiet —
no talking,
just to share the space,
just be together.

And then what — I don’t know.
It feels like something must be done,
somewhere to go,
but I don’t know what.
I personally don’t want to.
But that urge —
it is like water so used to flowing in that direction
that it feels natural.
Like a magnet.
How funny would that be —
a river flowing,
but something pulling its water,
so it changes course.

Imagine a circle.
This is life, or awareness — everything that exists.
Then there is you, the ego-self.
It imitates the circle.
From a dot, it enlarges itself to be the whole life itself —
just itself, nothing else.

So it is similar,
but no matter what,
it is only the inner of the outer circle.
As the ego enlarges,
there is a smaller and smaller space left
between the inner and outer circles.
And I call that space the place of suffering.

Because we know —
the inner circle cannot fully influence or control the outer circle.
But now the inner circle leaves not much space between the two.
So the smaller the gap between circles,
the more suffering there is,
because there is not enough space to hold the pain.

The ego enlarged itself,
but it could not become the outer circle.
It is impossible —
bound to suffer.

So it tries the other way:
it gets smaller, and smaller.
But it is painful,
because it is the opposite of accumulation —
of all attachment.

Let’s assume it managed to become a dot again.
A dot so small,
in the middle of the outer circle.
It can be an eye now —
watching the whole circle.
But something else is interesting:
a moment — and the dot disappears.
It becomes the outer circle.

Do you see that?