I am stuck
I don’t want to do what I need to do,
I cannot do what I want to do,
I am stuck.
I cannot accept my love for what I hate,
I cannot accept my hate for what I love,
I am stuck.
I cannot accept going where I am going,
I cannot accept staying where I am,
I am stuck.
I cannot fall asleep,
I cannot stay awake,
I cannot find answers neither in light nor in dark,
I am stuck.
I cannot speak,
I cannot move,
I cannot ask for help,
I don’t myself know what I need,
I don’t know my own language,
I am stuck.
I cannot dream,
I cannot hope,
I don’t want to go to my past,
I cannot see my future,
I have just fears in my present,
I am stuck.
My mind is taking water,
All the fire is gone now,
I don’t know how to swim,
I don’t know how to run,
My body is just floating,
I am stuck.
Istanbul, 2019